When Struggles Pay Off

This was the post that I was supposed to publish last week.

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Just a week ago, I had internal struggles. Now, I’m inspired more than ever. What I’m referring here is about the dance number that we’ll be performing for the company’s summer outing. I barely had any choreography just a week ago. In fact, I was already planning to back out of the number. The only thing that kept me going was that there were no other dance numbers during the night program and seeing that there were interested people who attended the 1st practice.

It wasn’t like me to give up or even get tired of dancing. It’s the number one on the list when I would describe myself. Probably, I just got tired of waiting for the time to be with my family since I just got back from home.

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Now that the outing’s over, all I can say is that it was all worth it. Personally, I love the choreography that I did. It was the first time that it had a lot of original steps and it’s also the first time that I was able to put into steps what I have imagined though there were still some steps that were taken from the tons of videos that I’ve watched. I also heard from one of my fellow dancers that the people from her team loved it. ^_^ After all that’s what entertainment is about, to let people enjoy and love what you did, but in order to do that one must first seek to love his piece before others can love it.

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Passion

There are a couple of things that I love to do, but there are four that would really stand out.

Drums

I have started loving beats, drum beats to be specific, when we transferred in Digos City. From time to time I would create my own beats on any surface that I can get hold of while also tapping my feet at the same time. I really feel good doing it even when there’s no music. That unexplainable, overwhelming joy is really awesome. Someday, I will really take some formal lessons playing the drum set.

Dancing

The first and undoubtedly my widely used talent that no one would disagree. I think my love for drumming stemmed out from this passion. After all, they’re interrelated. There’s still some things I can improve in my dancing skills but how I wish I have a place/room big enough to dance so I can practice what’s on my mind. I’m not really much of a choreographer but who knows how much I can improve myself if I have a small studio where I can practice.

Preaching

I realized this when I was in high school. During that time, I was fond of attending mass everyday before going to school and when I listen to the priest’s homily, I would be mesmerized and create my own reflection afterwards. I would also share my own insights in the prayer meetings of our prayer group. Often times I would find myself discovering things that I never knew before which I would gladly share in the group.

Lector/Reader

I also discovered this passion in high school. I can still remember the first time I served as a reader. It was really nerve-wracking. I can see my school ID moving because of my heart’s loud beat because of nervousness. Little did I know it was the start of 4 years of serving as a reader in our school’s liturgical club. I would read the scriptures with all feelings and I would make eye contact to the people attending the mass. Because of that, I received one of the most wonderful praises in my entire life from a priest, “ang galing mo naman magbasa.” It happened during a Wednesday novena mass on which I read the 1st reading and responsorial psalm, which is quite rare since we’re normally tasked to do only one reading.

Except for dancing, I haven’t done any of these since time immemorial, but in the future I would love to do them all again at least once.

Most Unforgettable Dance Performance

Michael Jackson’s out of this world, heaven-sent talent has influenced my love for dancing throughout the years. I have performed some of his songs in contests and intermission numbers in school. My most unforgettable performance would be the one back during the senior year in high school.

Cor Jesu College High School department, one of the schools in Digos City, is celebrating its foundation anniversary on that month of February 2002. We were invited to join the dance competition which is open for all Catholic schools within Davao del Sur. We were the last performers (I think there were 9 contestants) that afternoon. I can still remember the excitement and nervousness that I felt when we entered the gym. The performance wasn’t held on stage because it was too small so we just used the space in front of the stage (basketball’s half court).

The atmosphere was really awesome and it was like a feeling that you have when you’re performing in a concert. It was the first and only time that I felt so excited that much to dance. We performed MJ’s Dangerous concert version, which he performed in his Dangerous concert in 1996 or 1997. We used the same costume that MJ wore on that concert, coat with white band on the left arm, fedora hat (though we used buri hat and painted it black) and white long sleeves with black necktie. We also have a stick as a props. We used that stick in the finale. It was a really, really cool performance. The audience loved it and that’s what made it even cooler.

We won 1st place but it’s just an icing on a cake. Providing the audience with so much joy and entertainment was more than enough to make the weeks of tiresome and late night practices all worth it.

Most Embarrassing Moment/Performance on Stage

It was during my sophomore year in Holy Cross Academy of Digos that it happened. It was one of those culminating programs of a school event like English Month or Math and Science Month. I can’t remember what the program was about but it’s definitely not Linggo ng Wika.

There were four of us who volunteered to dance for an intermission number. We were wearing plain white shirts, khaki pants and the culprit of it all, strapped sandals matched white socks. The music for that number is If I Let You Go by Westlife. I didn’t know that the stage’s floor is slippery until we were preparing to dance. I was hoping that I can finish the dance without missing any step, but lo and behold, halfway through the song while stepping to my right I slid and fell on my side. I quickly stood up and showed a big smile on my face but it’s impossible not to get noticed. Our classmates who were cheering for us from the back of the audience started laughing while still cheering for us.

What makes it really embarrassing for me is that it’s my first dance performance in high school and I was trying to give a good first impression. It would have been less shameful if it happened in my 2nd or 3rd performance. I don’t feel awful about it though. In fact, I would always laugh to myself whenever I remember it. And after that day, I have never slide in any performance ever again.