It’s when I’m exhausted that I get to express my thoughts more and that’s why I’m writing this now while I still have some energy.
20 years. It’s been that long since I lost my father. I don’t cry anymore when I remember him. I just reminisce with a smile all the few good times that we had. I really didn’t get to know him that much. We didn’t get along so well either, but I know that he’s a good man. A goofy yet strict person but absolutely a man with a good heart as all his siblings and relatives told me.
Too bad I’m as strict as he is as a father and I hate it. I hate being so strict with my kids though I’m trying to control it so hopefully I can work things out in that aspect. How I wish he could have given me a sibling or two, but it doesn’t matter anymore now because I have my family to attend to. It’s funny because my kids haven’t noticed that I don’t have any brother or sister. Hmmmm. I guess I can ask them later about it.
Dad, I know how much you love your apos so please watch over them especially when they’re at school. I know you’re proud of them as much as I do.
Sorry if I wasn’t affectionate to you. You probably know that I don’t show much affection to people in person except to my wife. You do know that I care and love you as much.
Sorry if I work too much. Someday I’ll be reducing my work hours but for now and the next couple of years it’ll have to be this much. Please help my body especially my brain endure it. I just need a couple of years. I don’t want to join you there yet, okay? I want to beat your age as well as Papa Boy’s. You must be really so good that God wanted you so badly in heaven that soon.
I miss you Dad and I love you.
PS. Please help me drive safely.