Losing the Fire

After having been a dev team lead for the past 9 months, I’ve started to feel that I’m losing interest in the work that I do. I would like to attribute it to fatigue but I know stress is just a consequence. I believe that all kinds of work can be tiring but it’s only by loving what you do that you ease, if not lose, all the stress because of working too hard.

I think the only thought that keeps me going is my family. The job pays well enough so I can’t just decide to quit¬†on a whim. Having a new job entails another period of adjustment and I’m not even sure if the working hours will be as flexible as my current one.

I think I can make it through this small hump on the road. It’s not like I’ll be like this forever. I guess achieving small wins in one or two of our projects will be enough to keep me motivated.


Dev Team Lead; PS4 Weekends

It’s been quite a while since I last posted and a few things have happened already since May.

Dev Team Lead

First off, I’m now the Dev Team Lead of the company (home-based) that I’m working for. It’s only a temporary position for 3 months. I’m not sure if my boss would want it to be a permanent one but if he does I’ll definitely ask for an increase. It feels like having a part-time job as the stress levels are actually similar.


And because of stress, I’m always looking forward to weekends because I get to play with my kids on PS4. We’re so hooked up with the local multiplayer game mode of Call of Duty Black Ops 3 and Magicka 2. It reminds me of my childhood years when I was playing SNES/PS1 video games but usually alone.

Lectors, Psalmists and Commentators Guild

I’m now regularly assigned as a commentator in our parish every time our group is the assigned group. I still prefer being a lector as I find it easier and less stressful. ūüôā


Healthy Lifestyle

It’s been a month since my wife and I have started following a weight loss program in Herbalife. I now avoid pork and beef. I only eat seafood, chicken, boiled egg, nuts, and vegetables. I only eat dark chocolate once in a while. I do workouts in the morning in the nutrition club and drink lots of water.

After a month, my weight has gone down from 74.9kgs to 69.75 kgs. I think I’ll be able to reach my ideal weight of 67kgs in a couple of weeks (hopefully). My big belly has shrunk and lots of clothes fit again. I feel light and I can now jump like I did 5 years ago. ^_^

I hope my wife and I can keep going at this even after we reach our ideal weight and other vital stats like visceral fat % and muscle mass.



WFH Benefits

One of the benefits of working from home, to be more precised, of having a home-based job that doesn’t have a fixed work schedule or at least the bulk of the work schedule is at night is that I can find some free time in the morning. My mornings are usually free unless I¬†need to do a deployment to production or if it’s Thursday (I play basketball in the evening so need to work as much during the day) and so I can do errands, which usually deal with driving for my wife if she needs to buy things for the kids or to just do grocery. And if there’s nothing to buy we can just eat snack in our favorite cafe or restaurants. It’s like having a date everyday.

Another benefit with my schedule is that I can now adjust the pace of my work to my own liking. Unlike before when I still have a part-time work, I can now take¬†short breaks. Gone are the days where I just face my monitors for 5-6 hours straight without leaving my desk. It’s such a big help especially in lightening up my brain’s load.

Since I now have more free time, I can now also play with my godson, who’s my wife’s nephew who lives across the house. It feels so good to play with a 1-year old, totally refreshing. Too bad he doesn’t have kids to play with as his siblings and my children are¬†in school during the day.

There are other benefits with my work setup but I think these things are the ones that I love the most.

Focusing on One Job

With my recent headache bouts, I have decided that I will stop working on a part-time job. Surprisingly, it’s the part-time job that I’m going full-time with and leaving the current full-time one because I feel less stressful with the latter. I also don’t like being micro-managed by getting asked about my work almost every hour every time I work.

I can now finally start doing other things like the following:

  • Learn Unity game development (focusing on mobile games)
  • Finish the video workshops¬†on photography by John Greengo
  • Start writing about a couple of stories that I thought of before
  • Talk and play more with the kids
  • Help them in their studies (though my wife and their tutors are already more than enough)

Exploring Other Options

Since having a sideline that is still related to software or web development is taking a toll on my brain, I’m trying to think of alternative sources of income. I’ve decided to¬†only focus with my full-time job (whichever it is that I will choose in the next 2 months) starting January 2017.

Some options that I can think of:

  • Blogging
    • PC games
    • An on-going story sort of like a web comic (with no illustration as I don’t know how to draw) released weekly
  • Mobile game
    • Learn¬†how to develop games using the Unity platform
  • Affiliate marketing
    • I have no idea what I want to market though

Other than these I can’t think of anything else.

No Chocolates for Now

After N number of years I finally  went to the doctor to consult about my headache. I was prescribed to take 5 tables daily for 5 days. Sadly, I was advised not to eat chocolate or drink caffeinated drinks as these may trigger headaches/migraine.

Two of the side effects of one of the¬†tables are dizziness and some shaking. No wonder I felt like I haven’t eaten for hours because my hand was shaking a little when I eat during meals.

I’ll be back on Monday if there was no¬†improvement and I’ll be advised to take another¬†set of medicine. If that still doesn’t make things better then I’ll have to undergo CT scan (yikes!). My head doesn’t ache that much for the past 3 days but I think if I ever stop the medication, the headache will just come back.